I have been so angry over the past few days that it’s just making me ill, really, physically ill. I think I have seen just too much pain out in this world, so much war, so much abuse, so much bigotry, so many people hurting and struggling and no matter which voice any one uses to explain the pain, there is another voice who shoots that voice down with demeaning attitude.
In truth, there is not much I can see about this world that is worth living. And I read that line and realize just how unhealthy that sounds too. So I am going to take a vacation, or move away…...I remember watching Mrs. Lee standing on top of the airport in Seoul, Korea waving to our plane when it left for the States. She was all dressed up in a white and pastel dress like a princess or angel, the only one standing on top of that airport roof all alone and I watched until the angle of the plane took her from our view completely and I asked my dad “Will we ever see Mrs. Lee again?” and he answered, “No Honey, it’s very unlikely that we will ever come back here or that she could come to the United States”. And then I cried but locked that vision of her forever in my mind. Strange that the memory of her has never yellowed with age over all those decades….she is still an angel standing on that roof.
Anyway, I’m out of here.